Torments

      

         I found myself in the corner, leaning at the cold wall of my place. The wind furiously whipping at me. The ceiling glooms at the darkness that reminds me of my torments. Is it wrong to love you? Is this a mistake? Is it worth to ride a shotgun for? You almost consumed me baby. I don't know what to feel anymore. I thought your love will make me whole, cause your the bliss of my smile. Your promises of eternal love feed my soul to live by. I became a fan of forever because of your words, but now I'm a wall that wrecked by your vows. You choose to detached me from you because of some disputements. I thought you'll fight for our love but you just give up effortlessly on me. As I give a piece of me to you, while I'm trying to give you what I have. I never realize you we're breaking me and left me hanging on a piece of strand. While I'm trying to put the pieces back together, you were there not to fix it but you were there ripping apart mine. 


       Every morning is supposed to be another beginning but it became a battlefield to me. Another morning that I need to conquer, another day that I need to survive. Where are you now baby? I need your vows to lift me, I need your hug to calm me and I need you now to love me. I guessed I'am already done with you, but everytime I say "I'am done" I just find myself trying again. I just hope One day, you're going to wake up and notice that you should've tried because I was worth the fight.